It IS my life!

I found out yesterday (from a fellow parent and friend) that Brendan's picture is on the school hallway wall for success skills "personal best"...It's a thing the school does...the teachers pick a few kids from each grade and award them for doing good at certain things...this time it was "personal best" but they also have things like "respect", "positive communication",....etc. and then once each month the principle picks 4 kids from that group to take them out to lunch. Anyway, apparently his photo has been on the wall for quite some time but of course I knew nothing about it because my kids don't tell me ANYthing! When I ask them how their day was they say "fine"....when I ask if anything exciting happened I get "yeah, recess"....so then something like this comes along that makes me especially proud and I can't even give him the pat on the back that he deserves! .....AND..... then I look like a total SCHMUCK for not having a CLUE what's going on in my kids' lives.....DRIVES ME CRAZY!

I'm reading the new Oprah book..."A New Earth: Awakening to your life's purpose"...trying to anyway. I'm having difficulties getting through it. I like it. I like the message. The truth in the message is enlightening...that is, when I actually "get" the message..... But I'm thinking it's just a little too intellectual for me. Too many big words...LOL! Reading this book is exhausting. I have to share a rather lengthy excerpt from the book...it made me laugh...I'll tell you why after I type it...although, I doubt you'll need my explanation!

"Ego comes about through a split in the human psyche in which identity
separates into two parts that we could call "I" and "me" or "me" and
"myself". Every ego is therefore schizophrenic, to use the word in its
popular meaning of split personality. You live with a mental image of
yourself, a conceptual self that you have a relationship with. Life itself
becomes conceptualized and separated from who you are when you speak of "my life." The moment you say or think "my life" and believe in what you are saying (rather than it just being a linguistic convention), you have entered the realm of delusion. If there is such a thing as "my life," it follows that I and life are two separate things, and so I can also lose
my life, my imaginary treasured possession. Death becomes a seeming
reality and a threat. Words and concepts split life into separate
segments that have no reality in themselves. We could even say that
the notion "my life" is the original delusion of separateness, the
source of ego"....blah blah blah....."So there is no such thing as "my
life"....

I think I should change the name of my blog. According to Eckhart Tolle I must have titled my blog "My Life" because I'm both schizophrenic and delusional....and the contents of this blog truely don't exist because there is no such thing as "my life". I don't think I'm getting it. He wrote in the beginning "It can only awaken those who are ready"....I don't think I'm ready....