Monday, January 12, 2009

Seasonal Affective Disorder is officially kick'n in.

I apologize in advance for this ridiculously boring and pissy post.
So, one week into my New Years declaration and I'm doing, OK. Just OK. I haven't dropped any pounds but I haven't gained any either and when you consider the fact that this is day 8 of "breathing free" that's really quite an accomplishment for me. Only a smoker can fully appreciate this. When the hand mouth oral fixation isn't being satisfied through smoking we replace the cigarette with food.
Note to self: Invest in an industrial size bag of suckers.
Don't judge. It's very unbecoming.
I was doing really good with the eating healthier until yesterday. We were at a competition and the food that was available to us didn't leave us with many choices. So I snacked on crap all day. And by "crap" I mean gigantic (and by gigantic I mean 8 inches in diameter) m&m sugar cookies and big buckets of popcorn. Our family also ended up at a fast food joint last night because it was late and we were out of town and we had a long drive home and we didn't have any healthier options. Yes, I could've chosen a healthier alternative than the crispy chicken club (fresh from the deep fryer) from Wendy's. But I didn't.
Sue me.
And this week Thursday we leave for another gymnastic's meet in Chicago and so eating healthy this weekend will be a (another) huge challenge. There's always something in the way, isn't there?
I worked out 5 days last week. Monday - Friday. Did something really awful to my lower back during Friday's Fitness class and was down and out in pain all weekend. I think I pulled a muscle. The pain progressively got worse all day Friday until I ended scamming a couple Vicodin from my dad so I could sleep. The Vicodin took the edge off but I was up all night anyway itching from the drugs. Figures. The pain is still there and I still can't sleep because of it and I'm just not a nice person to be around when I can't sleep. I'm over dosing on Motrin and Aleve, I smell like freak'n Bengay, and I walk around with a cold compress strapped around my waste all day. Still trying to decide if I should just suck it up until it heals or actually make a trip to my doctors.
I'm tired, I'm crabby, I'm in pain, and I am sick. to. death of winter. Seriously. I've had enough.
Forget yesterday's post. I was high on drugs. Michigan sucks.
Excuse me while I go take a hefty dose of Vitamin D.
And to add fuel to my fire I can't space my paragraphs apart in this post....or yesterday's post. WTH!

19 comments:

a li'l bit squishy said...

Hey Mamasmurf, it's been nice to "meet" you too. And as your new favorite Respiratory Therapist...CONGRATULATIONS...on your commitment to Breathe Free. You deserve the benefits of being healthier and the money in your pockets!! Keep at it, you can do it!

Marni's Organized Mess said...

I know your pain. I do.

Hang in there. Proud of you on the smoking. My first kicker is quitting the sugar. THEN I need to focus on the cig's. :(

Rozzbin said...

I hear ya girl. I am so over winter!

Kori said...

I have five left. That;s it. Five. I think that I am going to be both meaner and fatter than you as a result of quitting. And I hope nobidy gives me the perky "You can do it" speech or I might deck them. Just sayin'.

kelly said...

Oh Tammy......we need to get together for another breakfast again soon. Consisting of liquids and no solids. We eat bad bad during our visits! When are you available? Let's book it!

Kel

Dana said...

Way to go with all of your workouts girl!! keep up the good work!!!!!

Leslie said...

Sorry you're hurting, but I'm soooo proud of you for working out 5 days out of the week! I'm impressed!

You should take some Benadryl with your Vicodin, it will relieve the itching and add a little "knock me out" to your nightly routine ;)

Domestic Accident said...

Lack of sleep makes everything worse. What you have going on stinks, but the lack of sleep makes it suck.

BTW, I thought the Michigan article was sorta inspiring. I actually read it in my hubby's SI before you posted it.

Kate @ Life As I Live It said...

Man, I totally hear ya. I swear i have SAD too and every year I start stomping around like an angry grizzly bear, wishing I could just hole up in my den for the next several months. Why I live in this part of the country, I don't know. Oh wait. Yes I do. Same reasons you're still in Michigan: familiy.

Anyway, can you pack yourself a backpack of healthy snacks so at the meet this weekend you'll have some better options? You can still have popcorn, just airpop it yourself and throw in some pretzels, carrots sticks, fruit, whatever... Or even make a turkey wrap on one of those flavored tortillas. You could pack those for the fam in a cooler for the ride home even! Yes, it'll take a bit more planning and prep, but it'll be way worth it.

Way to go on the workouts. I really need/want to get back to the gym now that my house-building adventure is coming to a close.

April said...

As far as I'm concerned you're kicking ass!
I start my weight training later this week. Wish me luck!

Ashley said...

I didn't realize you had quit smoking (for that matter I didn't realize you were a smoker) but what a great accomplishment! I'm sure that makes everything harder. Trying to quit smoking along with losing weight is a tough challenge.... along with your busy, busy schedule! But you are doing great. Keep it up!

(I had so many posts in my reader when I came back from our trip that I just deleted them all without reading... I probably missed a lot. Oops!)

My expressions LIVE said...

I wish I had it in me to stay in the gym five days last week. You are doing fine....they say 21 days to get over that hump.....plus once you get to Illinois...it all gets better...;)

Christy said...

My poor friend. I am sorry.

anglophilefootballfanatic.com said...

I understand the sadness. You guys are getting battered hard this year. I'm so sorry. I'm impressed with you sticking to working out. I'm sadly, eating peanut m&ms and just THINKING about exercising.

Leslie said...

Sorry to hear about your back. Hope you feel better soon. Hang in there with the no smoking. I'm proud of you!

♥spoiled mommy♥ said...

Awww-poor thing!!
Are you feeling ANY better?? Did you go to the doctors?

Great job on not smoking-Im proud of you!!

Suzie said...

Keep on not smoking. Go you!

common mom said...

Hang in there!

Back pain - I literally feel your pain and feel for you. Hope it feels better soon! I hate hate hate when an injuury gets in the way of my workout groove . . . that is when I'm in one.

And the smoking - good for you! I'm not a smoker, but I grew up with two chimneys. I understand what you're going through. The addiction is amazing and most people don't get it. Hang in there . . . it's tough tough tough, but just hang in there!

Sending a warmer sunnier day your way!

Colleen - Mommy Always Wins said...

Hang in there, hon!

I know this Jason Mraz you've got playin' here is helpin' ME some! ;-)